Being the side whore hurts.


Sad black woman

I have been seeing this guy almost a year now. It started as a hookup but ended up falling in love with him given the past abusive drunkard boyfriend and I had just ended, this felt like the best new start. The time I started getting too attached, I felt it was too good to be true. So, I decided to do a facebook search, his history, just to know this person am falling for greatly. I did find that he has a child.

Of course, the first thing that runs through my mind. “who and where is the baby mama” He doesn’t deny having a child and baby mama being present but he says they have a child together and that’s all. The rest is work in progress.

I carried on with the hooking up. He says he also felt love for me but never has he taken me on any spree together with him. Never has he ever post a picture of us together anywhere, then I started to think this through. is he still with baby mama? Turns out they are!

Confronted him about this, he says he doesn't want to let me go. I was ready to leave but baby mama stays and works in a totally different town from us and I was comfortable with that setting as long as she wasn’t here, I was good.

Emotions rose the times she was back in town, I got no more play-time with him as his family was a priority which I understood clearly. I could wait for the time they are back so that I could have my prince charming to myself.

A TEST happened, I got pregnant with his child. This was not planned for, I took P2 pills that suddenly didn’t work,  I could have wrongly taken the dose, I have no idea what went wrong. Before getting the results, I had discussed with him if I was to test and be knocked up, what was plan B? WITH NO REMORSE OR FEAR he suggests that “that kid got to go” This was clear that he and I will never be. Very emotional a time for me.

His family visits two weeks after the procedure, My emotions turn back on but this time ready to walk out and be alone because I had had it... I was really over him and moving on but then again he convinced me that he loved me and he was just so unresistable, I got back with him.

I have tried all possible ways of avoiding him so as to easily get over it but we meet at many places and end up sleeping together. 
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