I’m ashamed that I keep having these feelings for someone who’s unavailable

Handsome boy

I met a girl at college that has captured me in every way. She’s funny, caring, sweet and incredibly gorgeous. Whenever we are together we always have a lot of fun, and she always knows how to make me feel good about myself.

But she’s in a relationship, and she’s also naturally flirty. So I get stuck in being into her, but knowing I shouldn’t be. I always tell myself that I should just move on, but whenever I see her in person or see her post a photo I can’t help but get pulled back into the same thoughts. I know nothing will probably happen, and I doubt I’m more than just a friend to her, but it sucks.

I want to move on, for my own sake, but I can’t seem to do it. What sucks, even more, is this isn’t the first time I’ve been pulled into this type of situation. The last girl I was into was also in a relationship... seems I’m attracted to what’s unavailable. The last time it took me a while to recognize it, but it damaged me mentally, and I am not going down that path again. Now that it’s happening again, I recognize it, and I know I shouldn’t have these feelings, but I feel them anyway.

It feels good to write it down though because I’m kinda ashamed that I keep having these feelings for someone who’s unavailable. Thanks for listening people.
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