The mood swings never fail to amaze me
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I genuinely feel in those moments like I don't know how I'm going to live to see another day, it is so intense. It's like I, as a person, don't exist anymore and all that's there is all this extreme anguish. And then, maybe an hour or two later it's like someone flips a switch and the clouds have parted and the sun has finally started to shine after what seems like years. I feel almost completely fine, maybe even happy in some instances. And I can't even remember how it felt to be so upset like I just was merely 10 minutes ago. The only thing that remains is this pervasive underlying emptiness that never quite goes away. So then after one of my meltdowns, I'm thinking wow what the heck, that was embarrassing I'm so dramatic! Good thing I didn't try to end my life cos I'm completely fine now! Pleeease tell me I'm not the only one who is like this lol.
I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes just with how quickly it can change and how extreme it is. Makes you feel so out of control.